ISSUE 21 - The Space You Didn’t Ask For

There’s a version of trust that looks like letting things fall away.  And then there’s the version no one prepares you for… The one where space opens.  More space than you expected.  More quiet than you’re used to.  This week, my kids left in the middle of the week for the first time.  And today, Easter, I’m not with them.  And if I’m honest… I feel both.  I miss them.  And I’m also appreciating the space in a way I didn’t expect.

That’s the part I think we don’t talk about enough, how two things can exist at the same time.  Gratitude… and ache.  Peace… and absence.  Expansion… and the part of you that still wants to hold on.

Last week felt like trust through exposure.  Seeing things clearly.  Letting what wasn’t aligned fall away.  This week feels like trust through space.  And space can be just as uncomfortable.  Because when everything gets quiet, there’s nothing left to distract you from yourself.  No noise to fill it.  No constant movement to avoid what’s underneath.  Just you.  And the question: What do you do with it?

As a mom, it’s easy to get pulled into the weeds of life.  The daily rhythms.  The small struggles.  The moments that feel overwhelming while you’re in them.  And then… there are moments like this.  Where you’re reminded, no matter how much you love it, no matter how much you try to hold onto it… There will come a time when your kids leave before you ever feel fully ready.

This week was one of those moments for me.  And I know it’s just a glimpse of what’s ahead.  The first time they drive away on their own.  Graduating high school.  Leaving for college.  Starting lives and families of their own.  As a parent, there’s never a perfect moment for that.  No version where you feel completely ready to let go.  But what I’m starting to see is this, the space that comes with it… isn’t just something you have to endure.  It’s something you’re meant to receive.  Because while they’re growing in that space… So are you.

What I’m realizing is this sometimes the universe doesn’t just remove things to realign you… It creates space so you can finally step into what’s waiting for you.  Not as a reaction.  Not as something you squeeze into the edges of your life.  But as something you actually have room to build.  To feel.  To expand into.

This week, I’ve had more time.  Time to think.  Time to create.  Time to connect deeper with what I’m building through T-flection and Manifest in Motion.  And instead of rushing to fill it… I’m learning to let it be intentional.  Because empty space isn’t actually empty.  It’s potential.  And maybe that’s the deeper layer of trust.  Not just trusting what’s being removed… but trusting what’s being made possible.  Before it’s fully visible.  Before it all makes sense.  So this week, I’m not rushing to fill the space.  I’m not forcing clarity.  I’m staying in it.  Letting it show me what’s next… what’s ready… and who I’m becoming inside of it.  Because maybe the space you didn’t ask for… is exactly where your next level begins.

Regulate your body.

Move your energy.

Expand your life.